We're Old, We're all Damaged

I wouldn't trade who I am or what I have been through for anything. There sure have been some good adventures. I have met and made some great friends. Some times have been unbelievably tough. Pain, frustration and despair have at times stuck to me like glue. I do get depressed or anxious. Over eating and drinking have resulted in me gaining weight. I am 57 years old and have been blessed with so many different experiences.  All of us have!  I have to hold on believing in myself and who I turned out to be right now and how I will still change in the future.

Right now I am in one of the best places I have ever been. I have two young adult children that make me proud because they are trying their darndest to become independent and successful on their own. I have the best boyfriend in the world because he really loves me for who I am and some days I am not even sure of who that is. My mom, sister and brother are all unconditionally supportive of me and have been for my entire life. I have accumulated an eclectic mix of true friends over the years that all have hearts of gold.

We all go through life with challenges, experiences, learning and growth. I believe we carry the hurt with us too. It affected us and makes us react to things differently than we want to. But if we are able to see the outcome of that hurt and identify just what it is making us do then we can change. It might not be a fast change. We need to take it one day at a time and many days start all over again. But I know I will continue to evolve and try my best to let the damage make me a better person.